Phases of the Moon
Released March 27th 2019
This is the transition. The culmination of a disaster. A realisation and a release. Looking into yourself and seeing the things you are most afraid of. Seeing those things reflecting on everything around you and burning through the lives of the people you know. Confusion and sadness, loss and new beginnings. It's the weirdest tarot card reading you ever got. I wish I never had to make this record. But I did, and it helped.
Someone Else's Broom
Why do Solutions exist
For problems that should last
And eat right through you
Until the whole world is sad
She's keeping track of all her mistakes
And following the road to this place
Where the people abandon themselves
And gave notice a long time ago
He's tying up these boots again
And sitting on train tracks again
And questioning all of time again
And he piles up books and people
It's clear to the person
Who's on top of this house
Who's eating his lunch
And watching this play
It's clear to this person
Who's selling these tickets
Who's sewing up his pockets
And who's paid by me to stay
She's thinking of clocks
And the Man in the offices
Clearing up her mind
With someone else's broom
And he can't help this
It's the pattern again
But it's a pattern for friends
And this world never ends
Angel Pan
I looked up at the stars
And down at my body
Put my hands on my chest
I guess that I am dead
Because there isn't anything inside
To push my blood around
But it doesn't stop me walking
And hanging around downtown
But I got no Direction
And I don't know where I'm going
And I'm pretty sure I don't have a home
I'm reading at the table
And this basement is too hot
I'll type out all my memories
But I guess that I am done
Learning how to live
Well I'm looking for a heart
And in this broken boy
Something begins to start
I'm cooking up ideas
In this Angels pan
She's cleaning out these boxes
I left in my head
It's like I know this existed
Before I was even born
I will make sure that me and you go on and on.
Chemistry
Clicking on and off
Like a pigeon who doesn't fly
And someone who doesn't lie
This person in my life
It's only people dancing
When all these dogs are finished
I can't let go of feeling
Like I'm to blame somehow
All this is is perception
I see it from my window
I can't begin this sorrow
And it is over now
I held your hand in winter
Cleaned up my bedroom
Touched a face in my mind
And I can't see it now
Floating in this body
Lake swimming in this River
Makes me want to shiver
And go to another town
Fold me up like paper
Like I was Jackie Draper
Waiting for my dragon
To save me somehow
Time to hold my own head
And fall into my own bed
And lie about what I said
And clean this body out
A Catalogue of Sounds
I stole that cooking egg
And placed it in my stomach
It blossomed and grew up tall
It stayed with me from Spring till fall
I heard your voice in my room
But you weren't there again my friend
It was just a tape of random words
That broke my heart and kissed the birds
I closed my eyes and I pretend
That your fingers are real again
And pressing down on these keys
That unlock doors between these trees
I can stretch my dreams around your back
And hold on tight and start to pack
All the sounds in catalogues
Forgetting things I thought were mine
And in my house you're here again
And I can only hear you sing
You slip away from everything
Til I forget all you have been.
The Clean Up
Sidewalk looking like it's Christmas again
Feeling like she kisses all these days
Pluck out a feather from a duck in the kitchen
I can't organize unless the lady pays
She sits on a bus on a ride to town
Ties up her shoes like a circus clown
Twist off her arm to discover some books
Cleaning my table and tipping all the cooks
This coffee is a werewolf
I can't see the sun
I'll pick up the losses
I'll watch that girl run
Clean up this closet
Filled with everybody's fits
Fill up the swimming pool
With all these cherry pits
Watching these people sit on the street
Waiting for a phone call to save the show
Terrible human being sitting in my socks
Wonder how much longer until I get to go
Time Is A String
Any day now I will sew this up
Any day now I can fill you up
Any day now I will be your friend
Any day now I will make this end
Time is a string
Hold it in your hand
Stretch it across this land
And cut it up when you can
I feel like I am relearning how to behave. How to consider people how to collaborate. It's all too early though. I feel like all the world has been put in a bottle with water with glitter and stuff and mixed up and it's spinning like a whirlpool to calm the children down.
Move That Shadow
There's a bag in the closet
And it's full of my feet
Every single inch
That you would ever meet
Pulled out of this chair
And away from this house
And away from your mind
And away from this house
I gave her a photocopy
Of a list of my things
And never heard back from her
And all these things she brings
There's a shadow I made
Across the back of a car
That's moving away
But won't get very far
The sound concealed
In a strip of tape
Could fix up this problem
And send me away
Lay down your fingers
On top of a suitcase
And clap with your left hand
On the side of my face
People
So many people here with me
This man with a green Hood where does he sleep
Jobs and families and pets and none
All waking up inside the sun
I don't even know if I should still believe
And all the things I thought about
That I thought made up me
Is there some kind of tree
Is there any reason
Is there falling stars
Up in the made-up sky
Waking up and going out
And going home again
All this stuff that's in between
Is all just rotating pain
Pull me out again she says
And fit me in somewhere
Place me where I am loved
And start this all again
People in the streets
And people in my head
Everyone is living until
Everyone is dead
Everything Sucks
I don't like anything cuz everything sucks
And I think I might cry again
And there's something in my eye again
And she wants to go away again
And it's all my fault again
I guess I'm a werewolf
I might lose control again
I understand you
But I can't stop loving you even though everything sucks
But she doesn't want to touch him
And she's out that door again
My heart beats too fast
And I think I might cry again
I think I want to die again
It looks like she'll cry again
I just want to hold her
And make it go all the way
And look in her eyes again
And we both cry again
I don't know if I'll get through this cuz everything sucks
I don't know what to do cuz everything sucks
I wish I could patch this up cuz everything sucks
And if I was a better man everything might not suck
Exist
I'm not even certain that I used to exist
I'm someone's idea of a person
And if I am all the things that they proved
Then who has been living inside these shoes
It doesn't make sense that I am alive
Walking around and unable to drive
Filling my body up with all of these things
That eat me away and make me forget
If I did what they proved I did
Then maybe I don't need to live
Around all these people who forgive me
I can't believe I'm really this Beast
Selfish and heartless and a stain in this house
I must have forgotten I wasn't alone
Smashing and falling and forgetting the promise
And a small part of you will never forget
I'm not even certain that I used to exist
I'm a made-up person inside my head
Killing everyone that I get to save
I don't know this person that I really hate
Inside Stuff
And she walk down to the river
Though she talked like it was Christmas
Feeling through the water here
And pulling out all these fears
I will collect the inside stuff
And catalogue all of you
And wonder why it doesn't talk
To all the inside stuff right here
Playing with your memories
And telling stories of these games
Small world lives in smaller hands
And nothing ever feels the same
Hold my feelings in this egg cup
And start to throw away my eyes
Spinning around this feels like thunder
And other random tiny lies
Clean my hands off in this water
Clean my feet and wash my words
Written down outside this building
Spoke out loud and never heard
Hold onto your inside stuff
It changes shape but stays this colour
Rub my eyes and say it's true
Hold myself while holding you
Clearing out a space on my shelf
Beside these books and under plants
This is broken and won't be mended
I'll just replace these tired hands
Broken Mirrors
Is it a mistake if you do it for years
Is this world fake and just filled with tears
Can anyone repair these broken mirrors
Can anyone ever subside her fears
Confessions of a bastard kind
Fall from me like snakes on ice
Tongue kissing the Frog man in our house
I'm so ashamed of my abuse of power
Hold your face in both my hands
And kiss it better and make up plans
And wonder if this fog will clear
And hot glue gun on broken mirrors
What will it take to fix up my head
And step up and hold all this broken glass together
What will it take to patch up your heart
And hope to even start
To get through this bad weather
Proud
I dipped inside this head
And make believe that I am dead
And take that man behind a shed
And slice him up for all he said
And you are something that needs a break
From all the things that I can't take
And there's no way that we should live
Without a good place to give
I won't leave there is no way
I'll just kick out all this pain
And I'll fix everything save the world
If you would just still be my girl
I'll cut it out and pack it up
I won't feed it to dogs because that's mean
I'll cut out this beast and teach it tricks
I'll change this town like you've never seen
I can't give up I can't let it go
My mind like circles
And tracks in the snow
I'll hold on to this promise
And I'll make you so proud
Make you so proud.
Fingers
Take my fingers in your mouth
Pull this day for a week at least
Bite my fingers in my mouth
touch these people till you burn this house
clean this mess on my knees
fingers bleed under my sleeves
Wait for something to pack this up
Mail this letter and seal this up
Fix your teeth you awful creep
And stop the sounds while you're asleep
Send me to another home
Where I can live inside your bones
Clap for you on top of this tent
This is where my life was spent
Cleaning up a vacation cellar
Where I found you sleeping Underground
colour my eyes and hair
Like I was never really there
Call me up when you are done
I cannot sleep under the sun
Plant your tree inside my stomach
And feed me fish and fairy tales
Push me down a waterfall
And buy me fruit and Rusty Nails
Vaseline
I can't even touch you it makes this place disappear
I can't believe anything is happening anymore
Looking under your skin for too many years
Now I can't open my eyes because of all these fears
I'm not allowed to help you I'm a person in a trunk
Everything is leaving a life isn't these things
It is just a nightmare and I'm walking on this bridge
Barely holding on and slipping off this ledge
The hand that I was holding is covered in Vaseline
The person I was holding is turning into steam
And Marbles and steam and steam and marbles
All lead to the same place a place where you're not here
All the words I ever said
Will die with me when I'm dead
I locked them up in my head
And sleep with them in my bed
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